#1I really don't know what I'm doing on this site, or why I'm writing in a journal I doubt anyone will read.
But people do useless things, and I've got time to spare, so here goes nothing - litterally speaking.
My name is Sunny, at least to everyone who are not Scandinavian. I'm currently 16 years old. I live on the countryside of Norway, with both my parents and my younger brother - the other one just moved away, which has made the house a lot emptier. I go to school, I like going to school, I do sports, I stay healthy and I've got a whole bunch of people I know love me and probably would got to great lengths to make sure my life is everything it can be. But still I feel incredibly unsatisfied.
Who the hell am I to feel unsatisfied? I lead an amazing life; out of the top of my head I can probably choose a handful of people who would join me in battle just because I asked them to. And still I sometimes feel sorry for myself and wish I had a different life. This disgusts me.
Next year, I'm going abroad. I'm going to be the queer foreign exchange student, and lead a different life, in a different country with a different family. This is something I'm looking great forward to: change. I need change. I'm sick of routines, those wonderful routines some people dream their entire lives away wanting. I want something different, completely different. And I can feel my heart bouncing with expectations. Maybe this will open my eyes up even more. Maybe I'll grow tired of change, and want security again? Maybe in heart I really am just a normal wuss trying to stand out in hope that something will happen. I hope not. I hope I end up being the brave, independent, intelligent and honest women you see marching down the streets, looking great no matter what size, colour, nationality and profession.
I hope I end up being Sunny.
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